Empty

image

I see myself as a glass bottle. Some days I am filled to the brim with ideas, wanderlust and excitement. I wake up with passion seeping from my bones and it seems that nothing can touch me.

Other days I feel empty.

Sometimes I just feel so low about everything. I know nothing has changed that would cause the crazy thoughts in my head to be reality, but I can’t seem to get out of that slump.

I try to cover it the best I can with painted on smiles and good intentions. But at the end of the day I’m still empty.

Void of life. Void of feeling. Void of use.

Empty.

My soul feels empty.

Like a forgotten glass bottle.

Waiting to be filled.

Loads of Love,
Kate
xoxo

A Wonderful Weekend

image

Last week was full of ups and downs to say the least. The best part was definitely the weekend. I got the chance to spend some time with two amazing people (to be very specific, my Mom and Aunt) at a beautiful garden show surrounded by artists and gardeners whose passion would make anyone feel alive.

I love being surrounded by plants and art so naturally when you put the two together I am one very happy camper.

image

Since April showers plan on bringing May flowers as usual, I got the chance to wear my rain boots yet again. Oddly it didn’t rain while we were out even though the sky looked rather overcast all day.

image

I didn’t take too many pictures because I was carrying some important items ( i.e. kettle corn and lemonade) but I did manage to get a picture of this awesome door knob. When I do get a place of my own I fully intend to have old door knobs of all shapes and sizes on all kinds of doors. Something about this one reminds me of the animated Alice in Wonderland. You know, the hateful door that makes Alice cry?

image

I didn’t get anything there besides this ring that I absolutely love. (Please excuse my scratched up hand. I have more bruises and scratches on me than an imaginative five year old.)

image

It is handmade and it looks vintage to me. I guess that’s why I love it so much. And I also love how springy the floral design is.

image

I also loved how bright and pretty the flowers and succulents looked as we drove down the road and away from the magical garden show. Something about a wagon trunk full of flowers just makes me smile.

image

Oh yes, and I also made two more handsome friends. The little cactus is called Kevin. (My Aunt pointed out that he looked like a tiny minion from the Despicable Me movie so I simply had to call him Kevin.) And the bamboo plant is called Endeavor. (After the protagonist on the ever so amazing PBS show, Endeavor. Which, by the way, has the coolest music and wardrobe of any PBS show as of late. With the exception of Downton Abbey.)

Well, I hope you all had a fabulous weekend and you all stay ever so amazing.

Loads of Love,
Kate
xoxo

Happy Friday

image

Today good vibes are sprinkled everywhere. I’m not really sure why, but I simply refuse to question it. Hemingway wanted to send you all some loving and he hopes you all are well.

I have actually been burning him up this morning whilst listening to some classic jazz. (I know. How typical of me.)

image

My desk is actually looking quite productive and sunny today. I have been typing some free thoughts and they have been forming together quite nicely. I find that when I just relax and write what’s in my imagination the better I feel. It doesn’t feel so forced and I feel free to fail if I have to. That within itself is such a beautiful feeling. The freedom to fail.

image

And let’s face it, Mr. Frog just makes people smile. He looks like he knows a happy little secret he refuses to tell you unless you give him a cookie and a big hug. How could you be sad looking at that happy mug?

image

Oh yes, today I am wearing my favorite “pucker power.” You simply can’t go wrong with Revlon #415 Pink in the Afternoon. It pops enough to show you’re wearing lipstick but it’s light enough to not over do anything. That and it reminds me of spring. And thankfully spring us showing her lovely face to the south.

I hope you all have a very lovely Friday full of happiness, good vibes and happy frogs. Stay ever so amazing.

Loads of Love,
Kate
xoxo

Worth It

image

A big part of growing up is learning about who you are and how to treat yourself both in and out of relationships. Sadly, more often than not, most young ladies tend to put themselves on the back burner when it comes to endeavors of the heart. I have seen so many articles, books, movies, songs and advice columns that make young women feel uncomfortable in their own skin and cause them to want to change for one person who wouldn’t cross an empty street to see them.

I used to be one of them.

But now I’ve realized that I had gone at it all wrong. It wasn’t because of my hair that I was seen as unattractive. It wasn’t my personality that broke it off. Not my eyes, style, likes, dislikes, body shape, smile or even my imperfect skin.

It just wasn’t meant to be.

Every young man that I have met so far has been an ill fit for me, and that’s okay! It’s not my fault or their fault. We were just two humans trying to connect the puzzle pieces of our hearts together and they didn’t match.

No one is the bad guy. No one should take the fall. No one should hold a grudge.

It just wasn’t meant to be.

But more importantly, I wish that young ladies would see that just because their puzzle pieces don’t match with someone else’s, that doesn’t make them tainted or unattractive. It just means that you are one step closer to finding the match.

So please don’t fret or feel insecure. Don’t beat yourself up or change who you are. Don’t wait for life to happen. Live it! Follow your dreams, laugh, enjoy beautiful little things, love others and yourself, and most importantly forgive.

I am worth it. You are worth it. Your neighbor is worth it and even your enemy is worth it.

Don’t settle for mediocre things just to fit in. Strive for greatness. Be that woman that simply wouldn’t give in.

Because you’re worth it.

Stay ever so amazing. And don’t have it any other way.

Loads of Love,
Kate
xoxo

No Place Like Shelf

image

Now I finally have a special little place to put all my cameras, and let me tell you, they seem to like it very much. All of my Kodak Brownies are on the bottom cubbies and my Agfa Isola I is to the left and my Topcon is to the right.

image

You know how parents get out the Elf on the Shelf every year to watch their kids? Well, since I tend to stay naughty all year round I figured it would be best to keep this little guy out to keep an eye on me. And judging by the look on his surprised face I must be behaving especially bad this year. (And it’s only April…)

I hope you all have a beautiful day! Stay ever so amazing.

Loads of Love,
Kate
xoxo

Burning Down the House

image

I saw this today on a social media sight and it made me laugh. I can relate to the arachnophobia and the overreacting. Then it caused my brain to think. Really, if you think about it, in many ways people tend to panic at the first sign of trouble (spiders) and metaphorically burn down their houses. I know that I can sometimes let the littlest things and let them rule my thoughts and make me freak out over nothing.

It’s so easy to do! But if you truly rationally break down what is going on it is as if you are literally burning down your house because of one insignificant spider.

So instead of reaching for the matches I am going to try to grab the fly swat and take care of my problems. After all, I do love my house.

Have a beautiful one wherever you are and stay fantastic.

Loads of Love,
Kate
xoxo

Patience and Fishing

image

As a kid my mom and dad regularly tried to do little activities with my sister and me to make good memories and let us spend more time together. One of these activities was going fishing. My sister was rather keen on it.

I wasn’t.

Patience is a virtue I’ve always lacked. I am the first to admit that I become frustrated and narrow minded when things get hairy. So naturally sticking a fishing pole in my hand and telling me to sit on a dirty, bumpy bank to wait for a random fish to pull on my line wasn’t my idea of a good time. I remember wishing to be home in my backyard on my swing or riding my bike.

That sounds terrible, doesn’t it?

Honestly even now I hate the idea of fishing. But it’s a good way to test patience.

Most things that are worth doing in life require patience. Anything from going to school, losing weight, dating and even driving can test the waters of the chill minded.

For the past few days I have felt like the younger Kate slumped over in a bored and frustrated stupor just begging time to race on so I can go home.

But that’s not how life should be lived. Plain and simple, I’m being a big baby.

I love life so much more when I can just laugh things off and realize that not everything will be quick, easy and perfect. (I honestly don’t believe that combination truly exists anyway.)

So I suppose I should learn to relax on the river bank. After all, what’s a few more minutes of calm silence next to beautiful cool water?

Hey, was that a fish?

Have a good one wherever you are and stay ever so amazing.

Loads of Love,
Kate
xoxo