*Please note before reading that this is a compilation of an INFJ’s thoughts. Is there supposed to be a theme or message? Well, if there is it is unintentional at this point. Proceed at your own risk. Thank you.*
Cue The Stones, at this point I need a theme song. It seems here recently I haven’t been satisfied with the things I have been trying to do with my life. I completely relate to Loki of Asgard when he says, “Satisfaction is not in my nature.” Apparently I tend to be more critical on myself than anyone I know. It’s always been this way. Everyone around me sees something I have never seen when they look at me and I just can’t understand what that is. I wish I could take a moment and step outside of my body and look at who they see in me.
Maybe it is my bored mind trying to entertain itself with a destructive head game or two. I just can’t seem to be satisfied with myself right now. Anything I do seems to be highlighted by my brain barking out all the things I have done wrong and how I will never fix it.
Why is this?
Maybe it’s lack of caffeine. Who knows.
Truthfully, I have accomplished a few things on my life but I want to do more. I am a college student who has absolutely no clue what she wants or where she is going. I am falling down the metaphorical rabbit hole and plunging to heaven knows where. It’s partly thrilling and partly annoying, actually. I expect to be greeted by a rabbit in a waistcoat and a strange man in a mad hat at any moment. At least there will be tea…
I have so many ideas swirling about in my head and I want to do them all! They don’t correlate or agree in anyway, but they all seem so magical. Some are purely artistic and some are completely scientific. I have to figure it out, or I just might go round the bend. (If I haven’t already…)
And I’m terribly sorry for the partial rant/confusing thought monologue I have bestowed upon you. Please forgive my scattered thoughts and ideas. I’ll try to make it up to you. Here, take a gander at Niall Horan.
Ah, isn’t that better? Have a good one, where ever you are.
Loads of Love,